Thursday, January 19, 2012

...psychics, therapy, an astrological break down!

Obsession of the day:

...It's, not, how you start, it's how you finish,
And it's, not, where you're from, it's where you're at...

The Hours - Ali In The Jungle

I went to a psychic once, she said she could see me being a therapist in my future. At the time I didn't want to hear it, as that had never been an idea for a career path for myself. I actually was irritated that she would even suggest such a path, having dreams of fame and fortune, but some days I can see what she may have meant. She also said she saw me having a falling out with a close friend. I did not want to believe her by any means what so ever, but she was right. Shortly after that a misunderstanding with a close friend caused us to lose touch for quite a while. At the time I was too caught up in life and too young to take what the psychic said seriously. But she was obviously correct, whether I wanted to hear it or not. I think that means she may have been right about the therapist thing in a sense. But not in those exact terms.

Side Note: Currently I am listening to my new running playlist and loving it ...

Anyway, back to the therapist thing. I seem to have a knack for understanding people, it's really weird. Whether I just met you, have known you a short time, or a long while, I can pretty much help people figure out whatever it is they are going through. It's like something just clicks in my mind and I can almost see inside of them, I know that sounds creepy, but I think the correct term is that I am extremely insightful and have a good way of digging beneath the surface of any situation. It is actually something I pride myself on, it makes me feel like I can really help if someone needs it. Sometimes though, it may be too much for some, but I do the best I can to gauge my response to whatever state they seem to be in. Something that has to do with this as well is Astrology, I know it sounds weird, but if I know your Zodiac sign I feel like I already know the way you do things or feel about situations or how you will react. I know a lot of people don't believe in Zodiac signs or Astrology, but if you know me you know that it's something I find very interesting and know a lot about.

Today, for example, I heard producers in my studio talking about Leo's. You know I had to chime in and find out who was a Leo! Which got us into a discussion on signs and rising signs. This prompted me to look up my chart for the 17 thousandth time in my life. And for some reason what I read today seemed more true than ever before!

A break down of what I learned (again) lol:

Sun is in 20 Degrees Leo:
More than a bit of a showoff, you love to be the center of attention! But others do not usually mind because they tend to enjoy your genuine warmth and affection. Very spirited and willful, proud and self-important at times, you demand your own way. You are quite honest, however, and the respect of others is very important to you. You never compromise yourself and you pursue your goals with persistence and dedication. Your regal presence and demeanor draws you to positions of leadership and authority. But beware of being overly hardheaded, domineering, ostentatious or patronizing or you will lose the goodwill and admiration that you enjoy. Very theatrical, you live life on a grand scale wherever and whenever possible. Your strength and energy vitalizes those who come in contact with you.

No explanation necessary, lol. And although I do enjoy my own way most of the time, I think I have learned to take a step back and just let whatever happen happen. I'd rather not ruffle feathers most of the time, even if I think my way is better lol. Most of the time I am actually happy to try something a new way anyway :)

Rising Sign is in 17 Degrees Aries:
You are a free spirit and you must be first at everything you do. Very energetic, self-assertive and active, things must be done your way. Even though you may feel calm and serene on the inside, you certainly do not act that way. You want to do everything full-tilt, 100 miles per hour! A great competitor, but a poor cooperator -- you must learn how to lose more gracefully. Very self-confident, ambitious and passionate, you radiate positive energy. You are blunt and direct, but at times unfeeling and tactless, especially if anyone offers you any resistance. You fight for your beliefs, but your tendency to act first and think later often causes you much grief.

Now, as much as this is true, I of course have to disagree with some of it. I think with age I have learned to be okay with losing sometimes, but I am certainly hardest on myself when I have a personal loss. For example, a bad work out, a week where I didn't lose a pound, etc. As a child I may have needed to beat you at a game or competition, but I think we all grow out of that stage (hopefully)! I certainly can be blunt and direct, but after being taken wrong one too many times I have also learned to curb that. Life is a learning experience, it's not okay to be a jack ass and say "welp, sorry, it's my Aries rising" lol! Nobody wants to be hated (there's my Leo sun sign) for being an unfeeling blunt jerk! Yes, sometimes I speak before I think, but I make a serious effort to use my noggin before I do so nowadays ;) I don't know if it's my age, or life in general, but this has been a time of reflection for me. I have spent a lot of time thinking about where I used to be and who I am today. As much as I am proud to be a crazy ass Leo with Aries rising, I also know that it can cause me to make rash decisions if I don't do my best to be an adult and reign myself in from time to time. That's also what my Earth sign wife is for lol!

Moon is in 12 Degrees Gemini:
Restless in the extreme, you are easily bored because of your short attention span. Your emotions change rapidly and you love to talk about your feelings. Generally, you have good judgment -- your intellect controls your emotions and you do not overreact emotionally to things. A good jack-of-all-trades, you have many- sided interests and enjoy reasoning things through. With your mental agility and need for physical mobility, you are attracted to traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. You have vivid powers of emotional self-expression - - you can be a nonstop talker. You love to share your ideas with anyone who will listen.

This is where it gets interesting! The first two signs of my chart are in fire and my moon is in air, which fuels fire. I know for a fact that my Gemini moon can make me a little crazy sometimes. Lisa also has a Gemini moon, which is also why we get each other so well. Gemini moons are special haha. The moon controls your emotions, imagine having a sign symbolized by twins that controls your emotions! This definitely means that my emotions are ever changing, even if I do not express that outwardly. I feel like this description is me to a t. Especially the intellectual aspect of it. Get me started on a topic, especially something I feel passionate about, and we can go on for days. Lisa and I never run out of things to talk about and when we are in our reflective moods it is a sight to behold! I think that this is a reason I am so insightful at reading others as well. I am very comfortable talking about emotions because I run the gamut when it comes to them. I also love to figure out the inner workings of what makes us tick.

Mercury is in 09 Degrees Virgo:
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, and you get the reputation of being a nag or of being nit-picky. Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!

This is so me, especially with our home and my appearance. I can be such a nerd sometimes and I am totally Rain Man when it comes to memorizing things and reciting them back. I have been told I may have a photographic memory. I am a perfectionist, enough said.

Venus is in 29 Degrees Cancer:
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.

This may explain why I have been with my wife for almost 11 years, aside from the fact that she's amazing, obviously! I definitely have the ability to love deeply. I also credit that to growing up very close to my parents who both loved me unconditionally and showered me with affection! I consider myself lucky to be able to love so freely and I certainly tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Due to this, I have gotten hurt before, which is where I can understand when they say be careful not to become too dependent on others. It's important to receive respect and not give to the point of not being appreciated. I definitely don't mind giving and not receiving, but when something becomes completely one sided it's not okay. This is something else i have learned with age and life experience. I don't open myself up to be hurt as often as I used to.

Mars is in 06 Degrees Scorpio:
Your likes and dislikes are strong and intense, never casual or superficial. You are known for your persistence and willful obsession. Once you have decided on a course of action, you are unstoppable. Your emotional actions tend to be extreme, although you try to keep them muted. You are not quick to anger, you do slow burns. And you tend to release your anger as sarcasm or irony. Beware of your tendency to hold grudges and to be vengeful. When you do fight, or release your internal tensions, you do so body and soul -- you become totally passionate and your outbursts are awesome to behold.

This is also so true, I know what I like and what I don't like, it's very simple. I don't get angry often but when I do finally break down it's not pretty lol. I also rarely cry, when I do it's definitely probably misguided or I will let it all out in one burst. Damn these planets and their control over me haha ;)

Jupiter is in 03 Degrees Scorpio:
You love to dig deep beneath surface appearances in order to find out what is really happening. A persistent researcher, you are very interested in the psychology of any situation. You tend to become overwhelmed by the complexity of what you uncover, however, and that makes you a bit gun-shy about explaining things to others. But you must learn to try to communicate as best you can because what you know is really very valuable to others.

Also very true, which brings me back to my thoughts on "therapy" and how I love to help "theraparize" others. My Mom has a super stressful job and I know her really well (obviously). I love when I can try to talk her through a situation and she tells me later that it really helped her to get through her work, or whatever she was going through at that moment. I love being able to see past the surface of how someone is feeling or acting and help to calm them down with what's really possibly bothering them. It means a lot to me when I can lend insight and support to someone I care about.

Does this mean I want to become a Therapist? Not at all ... but it reminds me of something pertaining to my dreams. I think I know what that psychic might have meant when she saw me "counseling" others and I know why have been blessed with a gift of insight and a love for people. Now, to make that dream a reality is a whole new challenge...

Stay tuned ;)

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